Am I in Denial?

They took him! Judas turned him in! Why did he do that? Did he know who Jesus was? He wouldn't have me protect him! I cut off a soldiers ear, and I would have fought the rest of them, but Jesus said to me, "He who lives with the sword will perish by the sword." But Jesus did not harm a soul in his life... and he is to die by the cross? Is that right? He also said I would deny him. I would never do such a thing! As he is led off to be tortured and killed, I would never deny my connection to the Messiah! Why must he die?!? I will not abandon him! Will I?